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Time is Running Out

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 05:56:19 GMT

Aku terdampar di warnet, karena beberapa hal dan alasan...
Pertama, hari ini adalah hari yang dijanjikan sang dosen pembimbing untuk menemuiku, dan berakhir dengan melegakan: wait until Wednesday!
Melegakan?
Melegakan kantongku, tentu saja. Dalam artian, harus rogoh kantong lagi buat transport (yang makin ngga karuan mahalnya) dan rogoh-rogoh lagi buat beli tinta dan HVS A4 karena stok menipis.
Lega sekali kantongku!
Dan busuk sekali kantongku!
Aku bosan harus melek semalem, sementara ketikanku sama sekali nggak dihargai.
jangankan dikoreksi, dibaca aja belum.
Aku bosan, harus menempuh 26 kilometer setiap hari buat ke kampus.
Bosan, setiap kali lihat ke cermin, gigiku masih tetap terbelah.
Bosan, tiap kali ngaca, lebar jidatku ngga pernah berkurang.
Bosan, selalu aja kehabisan uang.
Keperluan kok ya selalu ngga ada habisnya.
Bahkan mau wisuda pun banyak yang harus 'disiapkan' dewngan uang.
Baju dan celana buat ujian lah, Jas buat wisuda lah (negatif, aku ngga sanggup bikin jas jadi aku ngga akan dateng ke wisuda malam), duit buat wisuda, duit buat hardcover, uang gedung!!!!!!
Ini GILA!!
Di saat semua ini menggencet kepalaku, kenapa musti ditunda lagi Pak...?
Batas waktu buat wisuda april udah terlalu dekat.
Saya cuma punya waktu dua minggu ini buat bahas bab 4 dan 5. Itupun kalo bapak nggak keluar kota lagi tiba-tiba. Itupun kalo ngga secara tiba-tiba Bapak demand revisi ini itu, kita kan cuma ketemu seminggu sekali?
Whyyy...????
I don't know, sometimes i just can stand to complain. I really have to DO or else, bisa stress ndiri.
Bosan! Mengapa setiap kali aku serius, selalu ada faktor lain yang ngaco.

Warnet busuk. Load newpost buat blogger aja nggak bisa. Tolol.
Kenapa musti muter lagu lagunya J-Rock's...
Kenapa ibu-ibu tadi musti cat rambut warna pirang di saat keriput sudah menguasai sudut-sudut wajah dan sudut siku-siku sama kaki!!! Whatever!!!

CApek..capek... capek..

RETURN

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 10:31:40 GMT

Hmm... It's been so long. I thought Xanga would delete any idel member account. Well, it's been more than a year, and I can still sign back. I forgot my ID and password though
I have three other blogs beside this. They're
dezinfectant.blogspot.com, and another friendster blog.
I wrote a lot.
Yeah. I think they're too much,
I guess I'll split some of tmy writings here.
I'll make this blog as my English practice field.
I mix some of English writing on blogspot, but nobody seems to be interested...
I guess, writing bilingual blog is not a good idea, eh?

SOrry for unreplied messages, this is my first sign in after a year. A whole year, even pass a month. :))
Thanks also for them who've invited me to his/her webring, perhaps I haven't participated.. Maybe later, after I get used to this Xanga blog.

Btw, does anybody know where can I fix my blog template? I did a lot of template enhancement for blogspot, but I don't know anything about Xanga CSS... Hmm...

Anyway, did I hear someone said

"Welcome back, Dez!"

nayy... :))

Monday, January 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 03:45:07 GMT

Yippie.. After this long.. Finally I could manage myself writing this precious blog again.. Err.. Actually, it was me who always lazy for doing such thing. Why? Yeah.. Finally I finished the winterfal, both GS and XG version. IT was so tiring. After about 2 months finally.. Its finished. I couldnt help myself to start working for another MIDI..This time winterfall.. What a weird hobby.. And.., guess what!! Finally.. my MIDI on the web!! Thathta

Monday, November 01, 2004

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 07:45:04 GMT

Rrah!! Its music background, not background music. Whatever. My English is gettin worse every day. Shalt i join LIA again..??

Friday, October 29, 2004

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 06:04:09 GMT

Hahah.. Added Background music for this site. It is The fourth avenue cafe from L'Arc~enCiel. Enjoy the song...

Friday, October 29, 2004

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 05:27:44 GMT

ARgghhh!!! I failed to attempt a download..!! Really pity!! Arghh..
Try this address.
http://www.hitsquad.com/smm/win95/MIDI_SEQUENCERS/
Download the rythm and chord plugin fur Cakewalk!! It really saves much time to emulate guitar sounds!!

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 03:34:49 GMT

Watt..?? I'm currently using Xanga premium trial for 17 days? So.., what triggered this.. I dont really understand.. Ah, well, I'm supposedly studying in the lib.. But then i get confused.. This is better place to run away.. Nothing special today.., except the rumours about robbery in my neighbourhood.. Pretty scary!!

+Yamaha XG+

Err.. After this long ive just realised dat Cakewalk Home Studio 9 doesnt support System Exclusive Editing.. But they put how to do it in HELP files!! D#rn.. Stupid. I found also that Cakewalk Music Creatot 2003 and Plasma dont support this.. Now, I've found the saviour: a abandoned software of mine: CHS2002.. Now, i can emulate the screaming distorted guitar!! Rrrahh!! Awesome..!! Anyway, where can I download XG works? All those sites give me nuthin but bad links...

Friday, October 22, 2004

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 07:17:25 GMT

Ahh.. Join up several blogrings.. Now i really have to translate my profile into English, and fix my simplificated English.. However.. Im still comfort with Im rather than I'm.. Dont and don't.. Does it really matter?? Arghh.. I think I shalt change my picture too..

Friday, October 22, 2004

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 01:43:17 GMT

Hmm.. This is Friday.. Whats good about that? None. But at least, I've my homework.., in the critical time..

Yesterday, I was forced to break my fasting in School since its already bilal, when i tried to go home.. Argghh.. Damn Statistical Homework!!

Now I know what is bittorrent. Its kind of Download plugin that enhance download for big files. I dont reaallly understand how it works, though.. Fine, whatever..

Currently, I dont know to do else.. Nah.. nah.. Maybe I shalt put my pic on? Ok.., talk a bit about REAL. REAL is a manga project written by Inoue Takehiko, the author of SLam Dunk and Vagabound. He's got a brilliant talent, and in the Vagabound, you will see a darn brilliant detail you've never seen before (in a manga).. The story is about basketball.. Wheelchair basketball.. The story is somewhat touchy, really. But sometimes, the Japanese-ism shocks me a bit.. ^_^ Not as funny as SD.., not as serious and v*lg*r as vagabound.. You will enjoy the manga as well

And why I keep using the d#m* wildcards..?? Simply because my connection's behind a moron firewall.. It filtrates some keywords.. I cant even open my profile in the friendster!! Simply because I put casino raiders ( Stephen Chows Movie) as one of my fave movie..

Hmm.. Nice worning. Some glittering chicks are in this room... TOo bad I'm sitting in the top-front!! I cant look to behind!!

Why I'm using my poor English/?? I've graduated from LIA. I need something to keep my fluency. I will hardly need it for my job interviews.. Someday..

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This is actually a bulletin board on Friendster. I tried to fill this form, but then i think its to personal to share.. Arrghh.. I'm putting it here instead. Hopefully, only to kind of person will read tis: A person really close to me, and someone who doesnt know me at all...

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YoU -

1. Seneng ga si hidup di dunia ini?

Yep.. There are so many God has given to me. But sometimes, I screw my own life.. Hiks.. Din really mean to do that though..
2. Hobby? kok bisa?
Nggambar-my build in talent. Dari lair juga aku udah megang pensil..

Music : i'm a MIDI sequencer. Thanks for Cakewalk Home Studio 10, Cakewalk Plasma, ACID 4.0, and fruity loops.. I can most of music producer can do.., except.. er playing real instruments.. But I think I'm pretty good drum player. Sadly, I never have a chance to proove it.. Anyway, I have a special music sense.. Whatever.. Maybe no one would understand it.. See? Thats why i dont put this in bulletin board!!

3. Deket ama family?
Yes. Of course. I live with my Mom.

**Emotion
1. Bisa ngendaliin emosi?
Mostly. Sometimes I cant. But I really seldom shows my emotions to other. Really. I let everybody around me knows me as a cheerful person. I have so many alter ego, that probably onle some people see it, and mostly, they only understand some part of me. Hmm. Kinda complicated huh? Thats me. Bayu, my Elementary friend is d**n right. Im so introvert, in old days or recent days.

2. Dalam hidup lebih sering nangis ato ketawa?
You should make balance of them You will find the true meaning of life from the balance...

3. Takut akan kesepian gak?
Absolutely. But I'm somewhat used to several types of loneliness..

4. Gampang percaya orang ga?
Nope. I've been traited several times. REally hurt me.. I've changed from those days on..

5. Trauma akan apa?
Cancer. My father died because of cancer. And i hope, the cure can be found soon. There aer so many people suffer because of it. I really wish, at least, no one in my family would have to deal with such desease.. Dear God.. Blease protect us..

1. Teman dekat?
Udah pada lulus semua. Yang belum lulus paling tinggal bbrp biji. Temen LIA, temen baca komik.., temen sms-an.., temen 'temen' yang lagi somewhere out there..

2. Pernah dikhianatin temen?
Yep. Nothin really matters now. Since theyre my friends.., i forgive them. Tapi yang nggak deket-deket amat tapi udah kurang ajar: i gave them a curse...

3. Teman loe banyak ga?
Yep. If a person judged from the friends he has, I'm the luckiest person in the world. (Its a quotation..!!)
4. Yang paling loe percaya?
Mama, and several campus mates..

5. Temanan ama lawan jenis?
Banyak.

6. Sapa temen lawan jenis yg paling sering loe
curhatin?
Ada deh. Tergantung masalahnya. Tapi gw lebih sering dicurhatin dah...
**Love

1. Yang kamu sayang sekarang?
Girl? None. I'm somewhat confused with my own feelings.

2. Perjalanan cinta mu?
Darn painful.

3. Pernah dikecewain pacar?
Definitely!!

4. Pernah berantem / putus karena orang ketiga?
Never tu.. Hmm..

5. Hal tergila yang kamu lakukan selama ini?
Sebenernya gw nggak segila yang selama ini gw tunjukin ke orang-orang. Beberapa hal yang sifatnya prinsip, I never broke it.

6. Pernah menunggu orang?
Hm?? Nunggu dokter di ruang tunggu? Nunggu dosen?? Nunggu cewek? Iya. Cuman, seringnya, akhirnya jadi illfill, At least we're friend now.. Pretty much a friend.. I suppose

7. Pernah jatuh cinta?
Stupid questionHeehee

8. Putus karena agama?
Er, bisa dibilang gitu.. Tapi bukan putus si, emang gak pernah jadian.. Ya karena itu.. Agama.. Itu hal yang prinsip juga deh. Mending hindari aja soal yang satu ini.., before someone get hurt..
9. Sekarang kamu gimana ama ce ato
gebetan mu?
Kinda bete..
10. Pesan?
Are you lost in the pollution? Are you somewhere in my soul??

-Simon-Suede-

**OLz
1. Kamu ada idola gak?
Artis?? Enggak juga.

2. Siapa? kenapa?
I used to like Sutra Kharmelia now. But.. Whatever.. Dont really cares no more..

3. Pernah ketemu?
Nope.

4. Ada gak orang biasa yang menjadi idola kamu?
Mana ada.

5. Siapa? kenapa?
Gak gak gak. Semua orang punya kelemahan dan kelebihan. Lebih baik belajar dari semua itu buat jadi better person of you.

7. Pernah ngomong sama mereka?
Argghh

6. Apakah Tuhanmu adalah idola mu juga?
KOk idola sih?? We are required to love god more than anything in this world. But, Tuhan telah menciptakan kita seorang tokoh buat dijadikan panotan di segala bidang : Rasulullah saw. Sampe sekarang, nggak ada kebaikannya yang expired.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 06:18:21 GMT

Ufhhh.. I hate this!! Aku harus nyari data promosi ama penjualan buat PR statistik, i've been wandering for sev hours just for nuthin!! I hate tis!!

Remember my promise about emulation? Well, I lied!! I'm not in the mood for writing something usweful.. Exhausted.. Tired..

Anyway.. Ada info ni. Yuu Yuu Hakusho rupanya diterbitin di US via Shounen Jump US.. Good Newsnya adalah.. Kayaknya di re-draw deh..?? Yeah.. At least disempurnakan. Lebih bagus lagi, bisa dibaca di situsnya Jump AMerika : http://www.shonenjump.com/onlinemanga/onlinemanga.php

Cobalah!! MAcromedia Flash Player 7 required. Filenya nggak gede kok, nggak kayak kalo download manga scan..

BTW, aku kok gak bisa dl REAL volume 2 ya? Ada apa..? Coba check www.omanga.com.

Anybody can help me out with bit torrent? W t h is dat?? ...

Bye...